The Heartache!

Where was my fault?

I genuinely do not know...

Thus starts the contemplation,

When the genius brain commences thinking from its right side..

Right side..mind you.. the emotional one..

The requirements..as they were called..I knew perfectly well..

Knowing that I was the most capable one..over qualified even.

Knowing that I was the most capable one..over qualified even.

Then started the real downfall.. It was a hasty compromise.

Someone close, a brother was chosen, albeit as an option...

And I was shown a cold shoulder..

I thought.."Will I be able to handle this with the strength of a boulder?"

The world came crushing down upon me...

When the stark realities were revealed very plainly.

Acquiescence was extremely difficult... but that was regrettably the only option available.

And thrown, I was, into an unending abyss...

I lingered around, in the dark, for a while...

Asked my brothers for help and advice.

Help they did, advised me a lot...

"Cut the threads, end it brazenly" was said

Comfort and solace was granted....

Why not? I confronted one day, heartbroken.

"Unthinkable you are" 

"Unimaginable you are""Confused I am, for my decisions are never correct.."

"Don't want to think about this anymore" were the answers which were received...

"Does she deserve you and your love?"

Friends and Family kept saying that..

Calling her names for what she had done..

I kept silent, because deep down I knew,

I still loved her and I wasn't buying that crap..

Then came unthinkable blows,

The chosen was discarded, deserted..

Both the brothers were comfortless, abandoned and desolate.

With the other's help each brother coped..

Perplexed befuddled were both, godforsaken..

Time went by...

Prejudiced was the verdict.. a revelation, sickening

Just when I found myself recovering;

Was I thrown into the dark again..

Still comprehending..

Still contemplating...

Still calculating..

Was I really suitable? Appropriate? I know not..

Because just then the brain switches over to that logical Left..

The computer beeps.. I realize..I've been thinking for a few milliseconds..

And once again, a mind starts to work.. trained for logic;

And the Right again is suppressed and it keeps screaming...

The brothers come to a conclusion..

“We are made for something far far more greater

Than such useless discombobulation..”